Friday, March 21, 2008

today i drummed for my mother...


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well... today was the day...

and... i had planned to get up early and head down for the vancouver 8000 sacred drums event downtown at the main library... and was really looking forward to it... i had helped get the word out and was excited to drum with a group of like-minded folk and really connect in with this wonderful annual global event...

however... when the alarm went off at 7:30am... i had a very hard time waking up... in a nautious fog, i realized that i was still not feeling very well at all... for, the past, almost 2 weeks, i have been quite sick with a nasty flu and cold... i decided to take another half hour more rest and see how i felt.. still planning and wanting to go... maybe i would feel better in a bit...

2 hours later i finally awoke and when realizing the time... even if i'd left that moment, i wouldn't have got downtown in time... and i still felt pretty yucky...

so, feeling quite disapointed, i dragged my weary body out of bed and attempted to wash off whatever in the shower...

i got dressed and decided to sit down and drum anyway... and so... i created a small circle around me on the floor, lit a candle... burned some smudge over me and opened sacred space...

i sat for quite sometime in silence while holding my wind drum.... still feeling quite disapointed that i had blown it... by not getting up in time to go and be with my brothers and sisters... and felt very saddened....

and so slowly... softly, i began to sound the drum slowly, mindfully... offering prayers.. asking for help...... i drummed and drummed for probably an hour or more... many sounds came from my drum and from me... i offered my voice... my songs... my fears... some hopes.... some dreams... my heart... my eyes and ears... my toes... my mouth... my hands... many emotions also came... tears of sadness.. tears of joy and gratitude... i offered my love and light for my mother... my blessed earth mother... it was all for her today... just for her...

and then... i could feel pulses........ all around me.. inside me... outside me... and i soon realized that i was actually hearing and feeling the heartbeats of my brothers and sisters from all over the globe while we all drummed together... at one time... in one moment... with one heart... and one mind...

and then.... i was guided to just stop and i stopped and just sat quiet while hugging laughing wolf, the same wind drum... but it wasn't silent at all... wrapped all around me... enveloping me.. i sensed, was our dear earth mother's heartbeat... embracing me with her love and her pulsing vibrations... it almost felt like i was back in the womb... but it was our earth mother's womb this time... i was... we all were... deep in her belly... together within...

i think she was very pleased this day...

hiyahyah.......... !

thank you great elders for this opportunity... and for inviting me...
much gratitude to you all... thanks for listening...
with much light and love... weaver (((o)))